Amp It Out!!!

Just Have To Say

2012-02-01T16:35:00.001+08:00

I'm a Christian.

But it does not mean I am perfect.

I still try hard and I will stumble occasionally.

I don't like giving excuses and I own up when I make a mistake.

But this is way over what I can handle.

Been wanting to get these words out of my heart.

Fuck you!!

.I.

That Song...

2012-01-12T16:49:00.000+08:00

Which I always repeat over and over and over again,

On Youtube while at work.

Its a very cute so I feel.

A song which makes me ponder as well.

Is there a girl out there,

Where ever you are, whoever you are...

Does she know that I'm looking for her? I sure hope you're waiting for me to come get you, and not get weary and opt for the second best instead.

That Epic Moment....

2012-01-05T17:26:00.000+08:00

When you tried and sincerely hoped that friendship and trust can be restored,

Someone pushes you away instead.

Everyone has a choice in their life,

Options to their Opinions.

Its just sad.

Regardless of how things will turn out to be in the future.

You will always be my friend.

My Bro...

2011-12-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

Kevin Rimas Lee is finally is a relationship!

Truly it is an amazing news.

A very joyful moment and I smiling so broadly for him.

Great guy with an equally great girl.

Deeper down inside, after I have turned away from looking at his pics with his sweetheart.

Fear enveloped me.

Never have I thought.....

That I will come to a point in life where....

I'm afraid of love.

Afraid to love.

Afraid to be loved.

I can trust and not trust anyone at the same time.

I feel like a hypocrite.

Regardless, abundant blessings to you bro.

He who finds a wife (partner) finds a good thing, And obtains favor from the Lord.

Pro 18:22.

I see you...

2011-12-23T12:38:00.000+08:00

In Everything and Everyone I see...

I've forgiven you, but you still Haunt me...

I'm confused ...

And I don't like it...

Why am I feeling so?

No. I don't hate or resent you.

I'm happy for you now.

Let go, yes I have. Done that.

But why the pain....

Fighting Temptation

2011-08-26T19:47:00.000+08:00

After reading my Cell Leader's blog on her thoughts on Fighting Temptation *here*, I was suddenly reminded on something every important.

Leaders too are humans. We are flawed and we make mistakes. The difference between a normal member and a leader is not that leaders are immune to most problems. They are only leaders because they are mature and took courage in taking up responsibilities over other things. In fact, leaders face a lot more temptations and problems than an average person do.

Knowing this made me feel liberated. I do not need to beat myself up for being a sinner. Neither do I need to feel degraded every I failed in resisting temptation.

God loves me and I know He died to cleanse me of my sins. I am forgiven. This have given me much more courage in facing my temptations and growing stronger, rather than feeling defeated and fall right into sin without putting up a fight.

Thank God for righteous people and leaders around me.

Lord, I pray that your blessings and protection will always be with them. Shalom be upon them.

I Feel Weird

2011-06-23T12:12:00.000+08:00

Never have I thought I would find myself in this type of situation again

A time where I could not comprehend what is going on,

Not able to understand why I feel this way,

What caused it,

And how to reconcile and acknowledge this unknown feeling/thought.

3 Deaths, 3 Funerals, 3 cremations,

Yet it was only 1 moment I was confused the moment I looked into her coffin.

I cried, I wailed and I broke down.

I know that you are for me.

I know that I am loved.

I know that...

You are gone.

Goodbye Popo...

Ignorance....

2011-05-12T15:26:00.000+08:00

Is never blissful to me.

Truth hurts and it might kill.

And I rather bear that pain and be killed than to be left ignorant.

Well, its definitely hurting a hell lot right now.

Sometimes, I should learn how to turn of that analytical, perception and inferential part of my brain.

Being able to see what people try to hide from you without effort at all is a real pain indeed.

My December...

2011-04-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

Memories

Of December seems so distant

Ctrl + Alt + Del....

2011-04-15T19:33:00.000+08:00

A computer engineer,

No matter if you have dropped your hard disk, sink it into the sea or even deleted your files in it

Will always be confident to say

"I can recover your lost data,

But!

At a price ;)"

See, I believe this is how God works as well.

We are constantly trying to choose or make decisions. To determine which is right or wrong, or decide what is worth the effort or sacrifice, to choose between 2 greater things.

Often, or most of the time we make mistakes, fall into traps, choose the road that is worst to be taken, yada yada yada....

I have learnt that though mistakes and regret takes place, our promise, future and purpose is never gone. It will be delayed, might be forgotten, but it will never vanish.

Therefore, choose.... What ever it might be.

And if,

Something went wrong or did not turn out right.

Our Engineer (God)

Will always be able to bring you back or recover what was once lost ;)

*Believing that though everything seems lost, I am still a chosen one of God, made for a purpose and that not everything is lost.

Amen.

If Only..

2011-04-12T13:20:00.000+08:00

You knew how much I'm reminded bout you when I watch cute YouTube videos of babies or animals...

If Only...

You could hold on and finish the race and wait for the right season to come, relying on faith and patience,

could you then see the bigger picture that I have envisioned.

Everything is permitable, but not everything is profitable. (1 Cor 10:23)

Bygones are bygones,

It is meaningless to ponder of the 'What if' and "If Only' questions,

Let it be that it is me that is found guilty.

For the choices that I have made,

Words that I have spoke,

Things that I have done,

Feelings that I have not expressed.

This Art, I would love to Master:

To forgive, though trust and promise are broken,

To forget, the pain and not letting emotions control my future decisions,

To be accountable, that my heart and faith is protected,

Above all,

To be contented with what I have and to admire what I do not acquire.

Moving on, while holding on, constantly growing strong, yet never weary for long.

No wonder.

I'm never understood.

For that, alone I am guilty for.....

Substance...

2010-10-05T00:52:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder often to myself.

Do I say something just because there was a question or I did it just to be noticed?

I really hate it!

To be...

IGNORED

MISUNDERSTOOD

ALONE

It is no wonder why I do certain things just to rid my life of these fears.

Yet, I made a promise to say things only to build people up or to share something that is of substance.

But why do I still get this feeling that I'm doing everything just to get attention?

I hate it....
This feeling of being in want!

MEANINGLESS!

2010-09-25T02:46:00.000+08:00

The title says it all...

No point trying to explain or console myself, cause the title says it all... Nitez...

2010-09-04T13:23:00.000+08:00

If only hating and letting go of someone is as easy as falling in love with them.

If only criticizing and blaming someone is as easy as saying sweet words and praises to them.

If only having bad impressions and opinions bout someone is as easy as adoring and respecting them.

Then again, if it is that easy, it just mean that you didn't love them at all....

Love vs Respect

2010-07-24T16:51:00.005+08:00

In many aspects, both love and respects have to be kept in a relationship.

You can't love when you don't respect the other party

Neither can you respect people if you don't care of love them

In relationship between guys and girls, love and respect is a crucial element to maintain their relationship. Storms and conflict may come, misunderstanding and arguments may ensue jealousy and mistrust may be harboured in your hearts. But as long as we understand the love and respect concept, repairing broken relationships can be made easier.

Man, by nature is a Warrior. He works, he struggles and toils for the things he wants or protects. A man is always passionate for something and fights to get it. Be it a job, a degree or even a woman he loves. He is a Boy at heart. Constantly complaining, screaming and yelling when he doesn't get what he wants. As the saying goes, boys and their toys... His soul, deep inside, lives a King. For him, it is crucial to give him respect that he deserves. A man not shown respect is a man living without honour or dignity. You can't get anything from a man, or have him to comply to you wishes if you don't respect him first.

Woman, on the other hand, is a loving creature. She seeks to care, to comfort and to nurture. That's why you can see girls, can love babies and care for them even when it is not their own. They are Mothers at heart. They seek to be comforted as well. To be pampered, to be treated with love and importance. Inside her, lives a Princess. That's why daddy's little girl will always be treated like a princess. But beware, for if you make a wrong step, the Witch in her might come out in furry. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorn eh?

So what does this mean? It just show Man and Woman are different. And it takes different methods to approach them.

Guys, don't be a big bully to your GF. She needs your love and attention as much as you need hers. Girls, don't lecture your man. He know what he needs to do, just that he will do it later =p

Relationships is built on love and respect

Man, when you withhold love to your woman, she will deny you of respect.

Woman, if you don't respect your man, he will not be able to love you.

Talk, listen and understand.

If someone gets angry.

Think why are they angry,

Instead of telling them why you should be the one getting angry.

Communication makes life easier.....

How Can I Say...

2010-07-22T16:02:00.004+08:00

That I'm hurt as well.

That I'm misunderstood.

That I do not want to be lonely and need attention.

Most of the time I feel like I have been selfish

But is it every time?

Was it that I was insensitive?

Is it that I'm naive to think you cared and would listen?

Things have changed,

Learn from the pass,

Adjust our expectations,

Predict outcomes,

Never stop loving.

I guess, Man, even when he tried his best

Did not get to find what he wanted to...

It was not because he gave up

Nor was it he was not persistent

Neither was it due to his motivation

It was just because.....

You need two hands to clamp

Two heads to reach a conclusion

Two hearts to love

And

Two souls to feel belonged...

I'm Crazy For This Girl...

2010-07-05T10:38:00.007+08:00

She was the window down

And she talks over the sound

Of the cars that pass us by

And I don't know why

But she's changed my mind

And you look at her and she looks at me

She's got me thinking about her constantly

But she don't know how I feel

And she carries on with out a doubt

I wonder if she's figured out that I'm crazy for this girl

Yeah, I'm crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me

The night the sky fell down

And what was I thinking when the world didn't end

Well I know, I know now

And you look at her and she looks at me

She's got me thinking about her constantly

But she don't know how I feel

And she carries on with out a doubt

I wonder if she's figured out that I'm crazy for this girl

Yeah, I'm crazy for this girl

Right now (Right now)

Face to face (Face to face)

All my fears (All my fears)

Pushed aside

Right now

I'm ready to spend the rest of my life with you

And you look at her and she looks at me

She's got me thinking about her constantly

But she don't know how I feel

And she carries on with out a doubt

I wonder if she's figured out that I'm crazy for this girl

Yeah, I'm crazy for this girl

*tears falling on my guitar*

Is It Worth It?

2010-07-04T15:52:00.005+08:00

News of me breaking up with the person whom I called my Forever Love is no longer foreign to those close to me. It has affected me to a degree that many could see the mask that I was wearing to protect myself. Not much of an actor, am I? Sigh...

A friend who couldn't stand it longer confronted me and asked me is holding on to the feeling of the lost relationship worth it?

I simply kept my silence...

Not that I don't have an answer nor is it because I'm plainly being stubborn.

People ask questions like this is because they don't value the of the other party the same way as you do. Therefore they would not understand even though you explain.

"Is the pain worth it? Does the feeling of love far outweigh the feeling of being misunderstood and mistrusted? Is it that nice to see her being taken away by someone else while you wait here knowing that you're just a back up plan?"

I continue keeping my mouth shut as he continue explaining in a caring manner. After the chat, I sat down and ponder about the questions he asked. I then remember a blog post written by Raymond, my leader on Value vs Cost.

In this post, he said "...it is very clear that when we fail to see the values, we will always say the price is high. It is only when we can see the values then we will not just focus on the costs."

Running away and letting go just because it's painful is easy. Pointing fingers and throwing people aside is convenient. But struggling through the storms, understanding and loving each other takes time and effort. The journey may be heart breaking and disappointing, but you will reap joy and love when you get to pull through.

Job 23:10 (NIV)

But he knows the way that I take;
when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.

A tested relationship is a genuine relationship.

I'm sure if you search deep in your heart, you will agree with me that you find your relationship more meaningful and cherish each other after a storm. For those who failed the storm, their ship sink, and we know that their relationship is not strong and genuine at all.

We admire those who have been in a relationship for so many years. I mean, you name it! Childhood Sweetheart, High School Darling, First Love and etc.

But did we ever ask them how did they do it?

We want something but we are not willing to pay the price. You don't want to be humble, you don't want to be concern, you never been selflessly loving, and think that to be a better person means changing who you are. You feel relationships are suppose to be blissful; no hurts, no pain, no misunderstandings. Just gains...

God so loved the world and He had to go through the pain of paying the price of His only beloved Son to die for us... If you think love is suppose to be only taking, think again.

Let's look at the other side of the story. I found this from the internet when I searched under 'Letting Go'. It was in Chinese but thank God a friend was around to translate for me. So lets read:

A person went to a monk to tell him bout his problems.

The guy: I can't let go of something. A person.

The monk: There's nothing that can't be let go of.

The guy: But I can't forget these problems and the person.

Then the monk gave him a tea cup, then poured hot water into it. The water overflowed out and burnt the guy's hand, which then the guy let go of the cup.

Then the monk said "There's nothing in this world that cannot be let go of. Once you feel the pain, you will let it go naturally.

(Original post can be read at the link here. http://www.duwenzhang.com/wenzhang/aiqingwenzhang/shanggan/20100118/87604.html)

What the monk said is not wrong. He was merely giving a way out, a solution.

But it's not the solution I want. I will stay because I see the value of something instead of the cost. I continue loving because loving has a great value, even when the pain is there. And I shall wait and wait even though the other party has moved on and has many others after that because the price of the pain is worth paying for the value of the relationship.

Until we we do come back together, or I moving on. I just focus on how I can be a better and stronger person in life!

To my friends, who in their good intentions tried to cheer me up, I thank you that you're all there for. For you*, I just want you to know that the thing that matters to me most is that you're happy and is in safe hands. To my leaders, I thank God that He has placed you all above me to watch over my soul.

Psalm 46:10 (NIV)

Be still, and know that I am God

(Prayer)

Father I couldn't thank you enough for how you restore my soul in every moment I seek you. Lord, know that now I shall commit everything into Your hands, and I trust that You will guide me and lead me to where I should be. My prayer is that to trust You that everything that has happened will come to a happy ending, and that she will be safe in Your arms, guided by Your grace and mercy, protect in Your love and provided by Your great abundance. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen...

New Layout!!

2010-07-02T21:42:00.001+08:00

Kudos to Cindy!!

I can't thank her enough cuz I'm such a noob in changing layout.

Now I feel refreshed with a new look!

My Valentine...

2010-07-02T00:22:00.005+08:00

If there were no words

No way to speak

I would still hear you

If there were no tears

No way to feel inside

I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart

Until the end of time

You're all I need

My love, My Valentine

All of my life

I have been waiting for

All you give to me

You've opened my eyes

And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before

In my dreams I couldn't love you more

I will give you my heart

Until the end of time

You're all I need

My love, My Valentine

La da da

Da da da da

And even if the sun refuse to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart

Until the end of time

Cuz all I need

Is you, My Valentine

You're all I need

My love, My Valentine

Please Cherish Him...

2010-06-29T22:01:00.005+08:00

I was taking sometime to look at my past pictures and notes when I suddenly came across this. It was circulated around the internet for quite some time. But I took a great pride in it because it was dedicated to me by a special someone. So read on...

"It is said that there is this kind of guy...

Who would still reply your messages even though he is already half-asleep;

who would wake up in the middle of the night just to answer your call.

Who would remind you to text him once you reach home safely;

when you could not fall asleep at night, he would chat with you.

Who sleeps later but wakes up earlier than you.

Who shares an umbrella with you in a rainy day, where half of his shirt is wet 'coz of the rain.

No matter where the both of you go, he would keep holding your hand.

He is willing to finish the food that you don't want to eat.

He is never late, and would never get upset when you're the one who's late.

No matter where you are going, he would always come to pick you up and never complain about it.

He is understanding.

He is tender and caring.

He is trustworthy.

He won't spend unnecessarily, but is willing to spend on you.

His hugs for you are long, and tight.

His kisses are deep, and he meant it when he kisses you.

He remembers everything you ever said.

He would open a tightly-sealed bottle for you.

He always texts you telling you that he misses you so much all of a sudden.

He tells everyone that you are his precious, his baby.

He always leaves a message for you.

When you are not feeling well, he would be very worried and anxious.

He always helps others without asking why.

If he promises you that he never will (do sth), he keeps his words.

He won't just run away when having an argument with you.

He admits his mistakes when he is at fault; but when you do sth wrong, he won't blame you.

After arguing, he would put down his ego and coax you back without asking for anything in return.

He never has the heart to scold you, instead he always tolerates unconditionally with you.

He would always protect you, afraid that you would be wronged.

He would laugh when you are telling jokes, thinking that you are very adorable.

He is taller than you.

His looks good from the side, but he is never into vanity.

He would think alone quietly, but never is he being cold.

He is good in so many things that makes you admire him so much.

He would always compliment you, giving you courage.

He is not proud or arrogant.

He won't hold anything back from you.

He trusts you whole-heartedly.

He's never overdoing in sweet-talk.

When he is arguing with someone else, it is as if he is explaining something instead.

Everyday with him is memorable.

He won't neglect you just because of games.

He always respects and obeys his parents.

He would keep drinking and smoking to the minimum.

He would inform you beforehand if he has appointments.

When he is out with friends, he would be thinking of you.

He would discuss with you regarding serious matters.

He behaves like an adult when he is with them, and as a kid when he's with children.

He like you and never does he doubt that; he never compares you to other girls.

He never thinks of leaving your world.

He loves everything that you have bought for him.

He has a good smell.

He is gentleman towards girls, but he keeps a certain distance from them as well.

He knows some of your good friends, and he would ask for their help to take care of you.

He understands what is troubling you, and always listens you out patiently.

He seldom makes you cry, and he gets very heartbroken when you're crying; he would hold you tight, telling you that it's all his fault.

He seldom sighs, but faces life positively.

You can reach him anytime.

You feel secured when lying on his shoulders.

You feel warmth when you are together with him.

He's always managed to strive a balance between his friends and you.

You are one of the important parts in his future plan.

Now, I would like to ask, have you met a guy like this? If yes, then do cherish him:)"

Friends. Most of the time we take for granted so easily and we only could see the worth of something once we lost it. Do cherish every thing, every moment and every word you share with that special someone cuz you might not have the chance to hug him/her again to say I Love You...

For me. This note will serve me as a lesson learn and also as a reminder. But it is a painful lesson learnt indeed which holds a priceless price tag...

I Thought...

2010-06-28T18:23:00.004+08:00

I am strong

I am determined

I am loving

I am caring

I am joyful

I am friendly

I am confident

I can let go what I can take up.

Yep. I thought I was all of the above and even more.

But I was wrong. I can't stop myself from crying every moment I see somebody wearing the same shirt as her. Neither was I able to hold back my tears when I saw the same sushi shop we loved to go together. I did not got to let go as how I thought I would be. I fact, I still feel a sharp pain in my heart when I sing 'our song'. In a way, I am glad that I feel this way and I am grateful that I feel this pain.

Because, if you are a nobody to me, I wouldn't have wasted my time thinking or sulking bout you. If you are not important to me, whatever you did wouldn't even hurt me or make me feel jealous. Most importantly, if you are not the one I love, I wouldn't have cried when I see 'Big Boy'or the bookmark you gave me.

Yet, it is sad to say, when there's a beginning, there must be an end. We have come far together. If God allows, I pray we can be together again. For now, it's goodbye and all the best.

I love you Cindy Chung Swin Xin.

Letting Go...

2010-06-28T01:33:00.003+08:00

愛不疚

主唱：林峰

收藏在眼眸　

常徘徊左右　

愛猜到沒有　

愉快玩笑後　

能全然退後　

你開心就夠

這種感覺太親厚　

講一千句也不夠　

假使講了你聽到後　

或會走　

這種戀愛太罕有

不須真正擁有　

成全　

衷心祝福然後　

就放手

放手　

放開所有　

彼此更自由　

放手　

其實我絕非愛得不夠　

放手　

豁出所有　

還有這個好友　

已經　

已經足夠

遙遠是宇宙　

靜靜在背後　

去看守就夠　

這種感覺太親厚　

講一千句也不夠　

即使一剎有過衝動　

挽你手　

這種戀愛太罕有　

不須真正擁有　

成全　

多捨不得仍然　

是放手

放手　

我的牽掛　

找不到盡頭　

放手　

期望你幸福甚麼都有

也許　

愛很深厚　

然而我早看得透　

放手　

至可擁有

Have been singing this song for so long that I can almost sing it out lout. Sad song, but it helped me to cry softer when singing, least my bro will wake up from my sobbing...

Fall To Pieces...

2010-06-25T00:54:00.006+08:00

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

*cries softly*

The Driver or The Transportation...

2010-01-04T18:25:00.002+08:00

Just the other day I was chatting over dinner with Francis (one of my cell group intern). We suddenly discuss how emotion rule part or if not most of our choices.

Then what separates those who can make wise decisions even in chaotic atmospheres to those who make drastic actions even in simple matters?

When thinking bout this, I suddenly had an image of a driver and a car. Then instantly I know what it means.

Are you a person (driver) who controls your emotions (car), or do you let your emotions (driver) control you (car)?

When I reflect on myself, I realize that I can make wise and praise-worthy decisions when I think with my head, rather than using my heart. I save a lot of headaches and misunderstanding when I choose to listen first instead of defending my dogma. But then again, I saw how great was my fall when I choose to vent out my anger and bury into my sorrow.

I have caused many sorrows, disappointments and anger towards myself due to the lack of control of my emotions. I can even imagine Phoebe screaming at me saying "Diming! You're too loud!". But thank God I realize this now and have made an effort to change. I have even started to write a list of Goals & Vision (for the very first time) for 2010 to help me progress in the many areas of my life. This year will be a year of being efficient and excellent in the things I plan to do...

My friends, if you all may, please look at me closely and see that I am a product of one who have failed to have control over my emotions and have bear the consequences for it. So don't repeat my past. Lets strive together for a better year ahead in 2010. God bless you all...

Hope...

2010-01-03T20:16:00.005+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!!!

Please forgive me for the late greeting.

Service today was inspiring as Pastor spoke on confidence. What was different that he started on the note of hope. It was indeed a relevant message as I know what it feels like to loose confidence in something important and special to me myself.

Pastor showed that hope in doing something is important. Hope is anticipation with pleasure, an expectation or confidence. Hope, when fulfilled, gives pleasure and encouragement. But hope, when delayed, brings discomfort, stress, sadness, and for me at times, depression.

So I wish all of you, to have something greater than yourselves to hope for, that you will take every effort to accomplish this hope with confidence, knowing by faith that you will succeed. Be it your studies, your business, your dreams, or even your relationships in general.

I pray for blessings over those who are reading this. All the best to you in this New Year.

Happy 2010!!

Finally... Hols... But...

2009-10-08T10:49:00.002+08:00

I'm just too bored not having anything to do other than occasionally helping out with the coming Emerge competition, UTAR paper work and reading books.

Got back from camp last Sat, but as usual, since I don't have a camera, I couldn't take any pics. Camp was great. It was like a time for me to refill my spirit once again, having drained all out from all the constant bickering, complains and stress.

Will be going back to Ipoh soon next Monday. Mum have been asking me to go home for awhile and since I have been and will be spending more of my time in KL. So Ipoh kaki's and kawan sembang, lets make arrangements to yum cha!!!

Signing off for now. I miss you all Lucky 8 and friends from Combined UTAR CF Camp 2009. I hope what I've shared inspired you to move up further and do keep in touch k =)

Frust!!!!

2009-09-28T13:55:00.002+08:00

I'm angry

I'm disappointed

I'm sick and tired

Camp is usually somewhere I go to have a retreat. To freshen up my spirit, make new friends, learn new experience and most of all... Releasing Amplifier King inside me. But due to lots of misunderstanding and huge gap of lack of communication, I don't know what to expect from the coming UTAR Combined CF Camp.

God. I've prayed for patience, I've prayed for wisdom and understanding, I've prayed for a forgivable and and graceful heart. So Lord I pray that I'll learn to be and also be able to be patient with my fellow committee members, and forgive the mistakes done or caused by the lack of communication...

Rest...

2009-09-12T16:58:00.004+08:00

1 Paper down, 4 more to go.

I'll be taking this short moment to rejuvenate and regain strength to push hard for my other coming papers...

Have you heard the phrase 'No man is an island"? Well, in many ways, its so true. But not for me, not for this moment I mean...

I just would love to have a long silence, in my own comfort zone, doing my own stuff and consoling myself.

Strange words from a person who socializes with people practically everyday...

Stress...

2009-09-11T13:14:00.003+08:00

I'm still the middle of exam stress but I felt the need to update a bit. Guilty leaving those who read my blog not knowing what happen to me. I'll be having my 1st paper this coming Saturday, last paper ending on the 26th.

I had the privilege to meet up with Ipoh friends recently. Tuesday with the ex-HM members having steamboat together near my area at Danao Kota. Met up with close friends on Wednesday after Bible Study in church and went to FCC to support Timothy in his launching of his new album. Even bought a CD for myself =)

Best was after the whole thing. Raymond and I followed Chew Sun to his friends party and had a great time there. A real stress reliever there. Got wasted. (Yes Aaron n Raymond, I've done it again...)

Time to get back to my books. I'll update again after my finals k. All the best to those having exams, assignment workloads and hectic schedules. Good luck everyone!!!!

Love...

2009-08-25T03:03:00.002+08:00

After examining myself for long, I realise that though I've been a Christian for a long time, I have yet to know the Lord personally. What I'm still lacking is I did not know how to love the God who have granted me salvation.

Matthew 22:39

And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’

This is to show that you love God by loving His people. This part I dare say I have done exceedingly a lot. I have helped others not subjected to convenience. At times I spend a lot on top up just to speak to friend of friends who needs advices. But still I can't feel God's love. Today I was praying and doing my daily devotion and the Lord showed me another passage.

John 14:15

If you love Me, keep My commandments.

I'm still a social smoker and social drinker. Occasionally, I exchange curses across the house with my housemates for fun. But when I read this I really know its time to get right and get real with God. When you are a beginner, there are simple set of expectations to follow. But when you want to reach a greater height, then new requirements and expectations are needed. And this is mine.

Friends,

I would really like to challenge you all to think carefully, how important/crucial/necessary is God in your life? Is your life stagnant right now or its just another daily routine? Maybe you feel you need God but you just don't know how to start. Well, let me encourage you to pray. I hope that God will once more be your source of hope and strength in times of confusion, uncertainty, and bleakness. God bless =)

Fashion!!!!

2009-07-15T20:11:00.006+08:00

Church....

A place I really grew to love and look forward to go every week and also on special services. It is where not only I can learn about the teachings of God, and fellowship among my Christian friends. But it is also my source of entertainment (silly attics of W23 combne W46) and where I could learn the latest trends of fashion. Last 2 weeks, we're very fortunate to have Dr. A.R. Bernard to speak to us 2 days. During which I'm greatly impressed from the fashion style of our cell members. It really inspired me to change my sense of dressing.

Here's Shee Wuen in her dress. Frankly, we were shock cuz its a rare occasion to see her in a dress. What more, she dress as if she trying to capture the attention of a specific person. *Ahem* I mean its true... We just could not resist the thought of 'admiring' her while she's leading prayer. A good 7 out of 10 for you sister!!

Shee Wuen in her dress

Now, on Sunday after our service, Pi Ca has set another level of trend. This time we were really like... "Whoa!!!! Pi C!! You're so man, man....". Donning a spiky hairstyle, jeans and a rugged jacket, makes me feel like he's one of those super power motorbike gang member. A real Tai Kor man!!!! You deserve 8 out of 10 bro!!!

The Man!!! Pi Ca!!!

Now, after we were asking Pi Ca to do a mini cat walk for us, suddenly our fashion champion came out. This time, our brother Francis have us totally fixing our attention on him. Totally beaten flat Pi Ca and Shee Wuen. 10 out of 10 bro!!! No competition man!!!

Francis: "I may be sick, but I'm still in fashion!!!"

Undisputable Champion!!! Francis!!!

But bro... You remind me of a character I'm really really fond of when I was young la... No wonder la I like your image so much. You wanna know who? Wait ah...

Ta Da!!!! My favourite Doraemon =p

Dora Nikov

Sorry Francis =p This is just for laughs. Please don't hit me. I'm a mou-tak-kau (beyond redemption) lame joker. =p

The Transformation of a Transformed person for Transformers =p

2009-07-03T15:04:00.007+08:00

The news is spreading fast.

If you love Transformers, then think twice befor reading...

If you love Transformers cuz of the actors and actresses, then think trice before reading....

If you love Transformers cuz of a specific actress, then don't read this at all...

But if you still wanna read, then i suggest you better watch Transformers before you blame me for taking away your excitement in wanting to watch it...

So, this is the news...

MEGAN FOX IS A TRANNY!!!!

I was in the canteen and my buddies shared the info from an interview with her. Er... I mean him. Ok. I'm confused. Just read *here* to see for yourselves.

Hais, guys. I understand how you feel cuz my housemates still can't accept the news. This is how our conversation is like just to show you what I mean.

Me : Fa Ge, why now you dun wan to watch Transformers liao de?

Fa Ge : Hais... I no mood le...

Me : Mood?? Need mood wan meh. Y suddenly no mood? Last time you sure non-stop watch wor...

Fa Ge: Hais... Now different liao ma...

Me: WAt's so different now???

Fa Ge: Now different cuz instead of a sexy girl, I realise I was looking and drooling over a sexy man lo....

Me : Wahahaha.. LOLWMAORODF!!!!

Anyway, there's nothing to be upset of. This may be just another Holywood gossip that may not be true. So just to cheer you readers up, I include here a poster of her. Just to let you see how 'interested'are you in a guy... Hahahahahahaha =p

The New Look n Feel =)

2009-07-02T13:23:00.002+08:00

AhhhHHHhhh~~~~

Finally the new look of my blog is completed. My links which I once assume to be lost, is now back thanks to my darling Cindy. Hugs. =)

Anyway, life is starting to be hectic all over again. Assignments and lab reports are pilling up, tutorials to be revised and practiced, mid-term exam's around the corner with various responsibilities out and inside of Uni to be fulfilled.

I'll be back for more updates after I confirm my latest findings. =) This news will be a huge big rock falling on your heads, I can be sure of that. So stay tune for updates k =)

New Look...

2009-06-29T13:35:00.006+08:00

That was what I was hoping for. To give a new image and feel to my blog. But I couldn't find a template that I was really happy of so I reverted back to my old look.

And what I get is...

MY WIDGETS ARE GONE WITH ALL MY LINKS!!!!!!!

T.T

To those who read my blog regularly, please send me your blog link please. Cuz I can't leave without reading your blogs T.T

Dad....

2009-06-25T12:11:00.006+08:00

From the moment I was born,
Joy was in your eyes while holding me up high,
Like one of those Lion King scenes,
You carried me around on your shoulders,
When I know how to call out “Pa”,
Try to show me to your friends how proud you are of me…

But as I grew up, I disappointed you,
Time and again I’ve mistakes that you feel I should not have make,
Yet you didn’t give up on me,
You believe that I have potential to grow,
And in love u pushed me to do better,
Yet, I did not listen or obey…

As I’m far from home studying,
I’ve learn to realize what you’ve been preparing me for,
Though you say you won’t care about me in Uni,
Yet you helped me through e-mail and calls hoping I’ll be fine…

Your face has more wrinkles than it used to,
And your hair is almost as white as snow,
Slowly you walk and glasses you wear to read,
This makes me wonder, “What have I done to make Dad proud?”,
Thank you Dad for everything you have gave me,
I’m sorry for all the things I’ve done, and the things I should have done,
I pray you have a long, healthy and happy life.

HAPPY FATHER’S DAY DAD…

So Much Pain, Hopefully I Will Gain =p

2009-06-18T18:03:00.002+08:00

My whole body's aching for yesterday's badminton training. It has been bout 4 years I stop training and my body is slow to respond. But its a good training. I finally got to force myself to do some exercise instead of staring at the laptop screen the whole day.

Hmm, if only my camera phone is still working or I have a camera, would have included pictures of activities that I'm having to make this blog more "reading friendly". Going back home now. Internet service form Maxis not going well and I'm in my campus block wrtiting this. I need my medicated massaging oil...

PaIn.......

Let The Curtains Fall... Amplifer Gone Quite...

2009-05-20T17:04:00.003+08:00

I've come back once again for an update. Thanks to those who took notice about what has happened to me, and all the concerns you few have showed me.

Once again I'm back in this page due to bad, painful happenings. Sorry... Details are kept secret in my heart so that you judgemental people out there won't simply past comments.

All I can say is that my stay in Ipoh has not been lovely or blissful at all, but I thank God that He has prepared me for a weeks plus for this 2 weeks of hell (1 week just passed).

Those who continue reading my blog, thank you so much for your support and encouragement. I'm sorry that I don't update regularly due to family matters. I hope to bring more news and updates in a brighter atmosphere for all you reader asap. Signing out for now...

Diming...

Finally....

2009-03-07T22:22:00.001+08:00

An update!!!!

Sorry guys... It’s not like I don't want to. But internet connection here at my place seems to give me more headache than anything else I have ever encountered. Other than that, I've come under fire, napalm bomb and rain of bullets with all I've posted here on my blog post. I don't have to mention from whom. I love blogging. Really!!! Just that I feel that my personal life and time has been criticized and condemned by various parties. So you can say I have a very traumatic experience bout blogging. So bad that I even want to close this blog.

I'll try my best to bring my spirit of blogging back alive again. No promises k...

KL, KL... How fresh does my freedom smell....

2009-01-04T12:00:00.006+08:00

Was back on the 31st to register for my course. It was kind of a last minute discussion to travel, so my parents drove me all the way to KL.

I reached KL around 3, registered my course, left my stuff at my place in TBR, and follow my parents to Dad's old-pal's place in Bukit Jelutong, Shah Alam. It's not that I'm not thankful or grateful that my parents purposely fetch me all the way to KL to register my course. It's just that at this age of mine, I'm just reluctant to spend celebration hours with adults when I have pals to celebrate with, and worst, my darling's waiting for me in LCCT and I couldn't pick her up. ='(

When back to TBR the next morning after breakfast. I had a very late breakfast with my parents (when with parents, breakfast is only called breakfast before 0930) cause Dad thought he still remembers KL roads and we were lost driving all about.

The next few hours in TBR was blissful. =) My darling is as cute as ever with her hair trimmed recently, and moments spent together was memorable. Took her to KLCC for dinner at a Japanese restaurant called Sakae Sushi. Its nice to see her enjoying the food there when she tells me she doesn't like Japanese food. We saw Kim Loke on taking the LRT as well.

Click *here* for a cute description of our time in KLCC from my darling. =)

I'll bring back more updates (only when there's anything for me to ramble about k) after I get well and have mood. Haha. Anyway, I would like to wish all my readers and pals a Happy New Year. =) I wonder how many bottles of Jack Daniel's, Chivas and XO will I be getting for my coming birthday this year.... Just joking =p.

The Air of Christmas In Ipoh...

2008-12-24T14:01:00.008+08:00

Caroling just ended recently. It was quite exciting, though I was expecting it to be a little more.... exciting??? Never mind bout that.

Will be having Christmas Eve dinner later, not that hyped up bout it. Nothing to expect from it. You see, there's just nothing for me to look forward to. Holidays sucks when your love one is far away from you, your gang is scattered across the globe and your sole entertainment is being controlled by your parents.

Will somebody bring some joy and laughter to this dreaded place called Ipoh? I don't mind lame jokers, crazy party drinkers and out-going gamers, but lets leave orgy out of the picture k... Lets just have some decent fun.

I'll be back for more updates, after I have found my spirit and zest for joking and crapping. For the mean time, I'm gonna bury myself in my study notes, and Facebook.......

Softwares....

2008-12-02T20:24:00.003+08:00

For the past few days, haven't really have the mood to update my blog as I'm facing major stress looking at technology. My laptop has become a nest for viruses, broadband sucks cuz I can't even load Google page, downloading is almost impossible as my Flashget starts sending me error messages.

I was almost going to the brink of insanity. Flashget is my main tool for downloading. How am I ever gonna spend my life without downloading. So fortunately, as I was flipping through the papers last week, the In-Tech section of Star papers highlighted a download manager programme called Download Accelerator Plus (DAP).

Now, DAP has been around way before there was Flashget, Orbit and other download managers. DAP is a very powerful tool as it accelerates your download speed over 400% faster compared to normal download. Besides that, its 100% spy-ware free. DAP searches the internet for the fastest route in downloading your files and media.

The downside of DAP, has been the main reason why I uninstall it. It's not user friendly. After setting where your downloads go, changing the directory is impossible, unlike Flashget or Orbit ask you where do you want the file to go before the download starts. Secondly, DAP creates a lot of mess on your desktop as there is a separate window for the main programme and download progress. And no, it does not exit into system tray when you close it, it shuts down instead. I don't understand why they something called the download tray, cuz it has no sifnificant function unlike the drop zone which Flashget or Orbit has.

Hais... I desperately need to download my latest episodes of Bleach and Gundam 00, so I installed Orbit for the time being. Don't know why, but it seems my laptop has slowed down significantly after Orbit has been installed. I hope I can reformat my laptop asap and use back my personal favourite Flashget. =)

It's So True...

2008-11-28T09:18:00.004+08:00

Checking my friend's blogs for updates has been my main activity activity since my long hols started. So happen I came across Tien Tien's post on a Psychological Study about Religious People (it's more about Christians to be exact).

Click *here* to read the article.

Although it was published in 1989, the trend of ignorant religious people (I do mean in general) is very evident. How many of you pray frequently for others instead of yourself? How many of you actually stretch out your hand to help some stranger who's struggling to walk without thinking he's drunk? How many stopped your car to help those having problems with theirs by the road side?

Most of the time I see and hear so many people advocating and promoting their religious events or their place of worship so zealously, yet when it's time for them to practice what they have preach, or rather when it's time for them to practice what have been taught and expected out of them, they fail to keep up to the minimum expectation.

In general, all religion teaches everyone to be kind, compassionate, understanding, helpful, patient, non-violent, caring, morally ethical and so on. I confess sometimes I do get angry and would blow my top. I did it so frequently that I didn't realize what I was doing until a good friend of mine told me off.

So, ask yourself truthfully, have you been helping others without prejudice? Do you get angry easily and throw tantrums at people without giving a second thought about people's feelings. It's unreasonable to think that religious people are God like people (not mega killing people OK), acting holy wherever they go. We are still humans and do fall into sin and make stupid blunders. The difference is, are you willing to change and grow, both mentally and spiritually, and helping others who are struggling along the way?

This is my 1st post on religioun point of view. Comments are most welcome. =)

Inner Ghost...

2008-11-26T01:21:00.003+08:00

I found myself waking up out of a sudden, along with a very troubled and burden heart. I just know that during my slumber, I have various flash backs, but I can't recall them when I'm awake. It just left me miserable, heavy and shackled by a feeling that I have not known before. I'm now sitting in my dark room, alone, tired, cold and scared.
Help me... ='(

Clouds...

2008-11-25T15:43:00.005+08:00

Since I came back home to Ipoh last Friday, there's never a day that it will not rain. As a matter of fact, it rains everywhere I go. It's no joke I tell you!! When I went back to KL, my housemates told me it hasn't been raining at all for few days. Once I reach KL, it's pouring cats and dogs man. But once I left KL, they said there's no rain. Damn tulan.

Same thing when I was in Kelantan with my girlfriend for more than a week. It rain so badly that we can't even go out for our meals. Just sit in the hotel watching movies and eating Maggi Mee.

The sky is turning dark now and there's thunder as well. I don't mind the rain, but whenever it rains, it last for 4 hours or more!!! Internet connection slows down, can't go out jogging, life is just plain bored at home...

I wonder is it purely bad luck or I'm radiating with majesty that it's attracting the chinese dragons? (Chinese believe it's the dragons that controls the rain) What ever it is, I want a sunny day for a change...

Virus Attack!!

2008-11-24T15:25:00.002+08:00

Like what the title has said. My laptop has been visited by a very frustrating virus. It slows down all your computering processes, disallows you from installing components and worst, does not even allow you to connecct to the internet cause the link 'Show all Connections' is missing.

Damn f**k man.

Luckily, I used to play around with my laptop and pc a lot. So i tried going into safe mode, and run a full, thorough virus check.

As expected, some of my System32 files and System Volume Information has been infected. I sent it into the vault (cause I'm not sure deleting something I'm not familiar with is a wise choice). Soon everything is fine once more.

I found out 2 of my friends encountered the similar problem as I did.
Hais...
Recession period, and now crazy people wanna make everything worst with a virus attack. I wonder, is all our anti virus programmes that incompetent?

Confused...

2008-11-10T22:55:00.003+08:00

Has been having lecture hours (and I do mean hours) from my Dad for the past few days. I know I'm fully in the wrong. I do admit that I have betrayed the world. But at the same time, I feel so heart broken and confused when I don't know where I should be in the next 4 years.

Why cant's I do something I'm really passionate about, and be fully focused in achieving it?

I hate myself... Just leave me alone...

Tagged

2008-11-02T23:26:00.004+08:00

I was looking at my friends blogs after being away from the internet. I came across Wen Wei's post, and since i have never done a tag before, so here goes...

1.What's your ambition?
- Clinical Psychologist

2.Who is more important to you?Friends or Boy/Girlfriend?
- My Gf... ( sorry man =(... I love my gf just sooo much )

3. What kind of pictures do you like to take ?
- As long as its not solo pics, anything's fine with me

4.Do you think you have enough confidence?
- To a certain degree... No

5.How many babies you want?
- 2 or 3

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Most of the time...

7.What is your goal for this year?
- I wanna pass my referment paper ='(

8.Do you believe in eternity love?
- Definately

9.Are you slacking now?
- Isn't it obvious...

10.What feeling do you love the most?
- Love...

11.What do you usually have for your late night snack?
- Maggi mee... It's cheaper and fast to cook.

12.If there's anything you want to tell the ppl you hate?
- I hate you?

13.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- Yes.

14.What does 'flying' means to you?
- I'm piloting a B-52, shooting down every government office. Muahahahah...

15.What do you crave for the most currently?
- To hold my Baobei in my arms =)

16.Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words :
- Super gila uncontrolable party freak...

17.What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
- Training students =)... I love to teach, don't know why...

18.What will you become in another 10 years to come?
- More good-looking with everyone being jealous of my achievement. =p

19.Which place used to be your favourite destination but now you hate the most?
- None...

20.How many years have you been blogging?
- 5 months

Tags...

So those who actually read my blog, You're Tagged... ( Don't know how many of you in my bliog list actually follow my blog, so I just leave the tag open to all of you. Ada buat maka tahulah saya siapa ada baca =p )

Nothing Better To Do...

2008-10-29T21:04:00.002+08:00

Haha. Loved the jokes. So here's another one...

Know your personality from your fart ;))
So, which one is your personality?

Amiable: One who loves the smell of other people's farts.
Anti-social: One who excuses himself and farts in complete privacy.
Aquatic: One who farts in the bath and then bursts the bubbles.
Athletic: One who farts at the slightest exertion.
Courteous: One who says "Excuse me" before farting and "sorry" after that.
Dishonest: One who farts and then blames one's dog.
Foolish: One who suppresses a fart for hours.
Honest: One who admits he has farted but offers a good medical reason.
Intelligent: One who can determine the smell of his neighbors' farts.
Knowledgeable: One who knows when to fart.
Miserable: One who truly enjoys farting but cannot.
Mystery: One who exudes undetectable farts.
Nervous: One who stops in the middle of a fart.
Proud: One who think his farts are extremely pleasant.
Sadistic: One who farts in bed and fluffs the covers over his bedmate.
Scientific: One who farts regularly but is concerned with pollution.
Shy: One who releases silent farts and then blushes.
Stereotype: One who farts regularly.
Strategic: One who conceals one's farts by loud laughter.
Stupid: One who farts and then takes in a deep breath to balance up.
Thrifty: One who has farts in reserve.
Unfortunate: One who tries to fart but shits instead.
Vain: One who loves the smell of one's own fart.

Nothing To Do....

2008-10-29T20:22:00.005+08:00

I was browsing through my friends blogs (Wai Nam's to be specific). He put a joke as a post. So I thought a boring day might be lifted by laughter. So here goes...

Why did the chicken cross the road?...

BARACK OBAMA: The chicken crossed the road because it was time for a change! The chicken wanted change!

JOHN MC CAIN: My friends, that chicken crossed the road because he recognized the need to engage in cooperation and dialogue with all the chickens on the other side of the road.

SARAH PALIN: To put lipstick on the pig.

JOE BIDEN: To take the lipstick off the pig.

HILLARY CLINTON: When I was First Lady, I personally helped that little chicken to cross the road. This experience makes me uniquely qualified to ensure - right from Day One! - that every chicken in this country gets the chance it deserves to cross the road. But then, this
really isn't about me.

GEORGE W. BUSH: We don't really care why the chicken crossed the road. We just want to know if the chicken is on our side of the road, or not. The chicken is either against us, or for us. There is no middle ground here.

DICK CHENEY: Where's my gun?

COLIN POWELL: Now to the left of the screen, you can clearly see the satellite image of the chicken crossing the road.

BILL CLINTON: I did not cross the road with that chicken. What is your definition of chicken?

AL GORE: I invented the chicken.

JOHN KERRY: Although I voted to let the chicken cross the road, I am now against it! It was the wrong road to cross, and I was misled about the chicken's intentions. I am not for it now, and will remain against it.

AL SHARPTON: Why are all the chickens white? We need some black chickens.

DR. PHIL: The problem we have here is that this chicken won't realize that he must first deal with the problem on this side of the road before it goes after the problem on the other side of the road. What we need to do is help him realize how stupid he's acting by not taking on his current problems before adding new problems.

OPRAH: Well, I understand that the chicken is having problems, which is why he wants to cross this road so bad. So instead of having the chicken learn from his mistakes and take falls, which is a part of life, I'm going to give this chicken a car so that he can just drive across the road and not live his life like the rest of the chickens.

ANDERSON COOPER, CNN: We have reason to believe there is a chicken,but we have not yet been allowed to have access to the other side ofthe road.

NANCY GRACE: That chicken crossed the road because he's guilty! You can see it in his eyes and the way he walks.

PAT BUCHANAN: To steal the job of a decent, hardworking American.

MARTHA STEWART: No one called me to warn me which way that chicken was going. I had a standing order at the Farmer's Market to sell my eggs when the price dropped to a certain level. No little bird gave me any insider information.

DR SEUSS: Did the chicken cross the road? Did he cross it with a toad? Yes, the chicken crossed the road, but why it crossed I've not been told.

ERNEST HEMINGWAY: To die in the rain, alone.

JERRY FALWELL: Because the chicken was gay! Can't you people see the plain truth? That's why they call it the 'other side.' Yes, my friends, that chicken is gay. And if you eat that chicken, you will become gay, too. I say we boycott all chickens until we sort out this abomination that the liberal media whitewashes with seemingly harmless phrases like 'the other side.' That chicken should not be crossing the road. It's as plain and as simple as that.

GRANDPA: In my day we didn't ask why the chicken crossed the road. Somebody told us the chicken crossed the road, and that was good enough.

BARBARA WALTERS: Isn't that interesting? In a few moments, we will be listening to the chicken tell, for the first time, the heart warming story of how it experienced a serious case of molting, and went on to accomplish its lifelong dream of crossing the road.

ARISTOTLE: It is the nature of chickens to cross the road.

JOHN LENNON: Imagine all the chickens in the world crossing roads together, in peace.

BILL GATES: I have just released eChicken2008, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook. Internet Explorer is an integral part ofeChicken2008. This new platform is much more stable and will never cra.#@&&^(C%..........reboot.

ALBERT EINSTEIN: Did the chicken really cross the road, or did the road move beneath the chicken?

COLONEL SANDERS: Did I miss one?

HM Anniversary

2008-10-28T10:44:00.008+08:00

This are pictures taken during the HM Anniversary Night. It some how turn into our reunion night after some misunderstanding and disappointments with the organisers. So this is what the crazy gang will do on a crazy night. Please get ready a plastic bag in case you need to vomit after looking at our 'Hospital Bahagia" antics. =p

This is what happens when 2 long lost friends meet up. Kena hantar Tanjung Rambutan. =p

Then Pui San say "I oso wanna gila!!" and comes over to take a pose...

Sensing that's he's left out, Raymond tags along with the 'Huh, you not joining us this time Pui San. Muahaha."

Out of nowhere Bryan shows up and say "You call this brother ah!! Have fun oso din call me!"

That's why finally we end up in the hotel bar. =)

So we took time to chit chat, telling our gila time stories and how's studying life in KL. After the story of how they went clubbing and drinking in KL, I was tempted to order a drink. A 'special' one. Aaron found out that it was my 1st time in a bar. So the conversation was something like this :

Me: Guys, can recommend me what to drink ah?

Aaron: Eh, Diming. Your 1st time in bar ka?

Me: Yala! If not! You guys never invited me out oso.

Raymond: Oooo... Bar virgin eh. Haha.

Me: =.=" .................

So Ray suggest to have a cocktail. I was wondering, why is it called a cocktail. It doesn't look like a cock, neither does it have a tail. So my 1st cocktail was recommended by the person at the bar. Its called B-52.

My B-52

Raymond said its something like a Flaming Lamborghini (again i was confuse why they wanna set an exotic car on fire. Give me la!!). so the cup is heated up by a lighter then lighted inside.

My flaming B-52. It does taste like a fighter jet flying into my mouth. Haha.

Not happy with only one drink, I ask for another one. This time it's called a AK-47 (kena tembak teruk oh). Haha. But i was glad I tried it. Two drinks in one night. Not bad for a 1st timer eh? Haha. But this time I somehow felt proud. Ever since I started drinking, my face have never turn red before. This is my first.

Muka merah.

Ryan: Bloody alcoholic!!

Aaron to Pui San: I think someone needs to be driven home

Bryan to Raymond: Never mind la. Just call his bro lo!!

Bryan to my bro's: Eh your brother drunk liao.

My bro's: What!!! What's mum and dad gonna say man!!!

Bryan: That's for you to think it on your own. I'm gonna run. Bye!!!

So that's roughly how the story is... Exept being drunk part. I was sober the whole time mind you. Just that my tounge have some freedom to say what ever it wants to that's all. Haha.

Holidays - Part 2 : Back In Ipoh

2008-10-19T17:53:00.000+08:00

Yes, I's finally back in my hometown after 3 whole months. My friends ask me, "Why did it take you such a long time to come back?". For obvious reasons of course. One word. DAD!! Anyway, I'm now home, eating home cook meals (not all of the time cause mum and dad is busy taking PTK exams and school stuff), sleeping all the time and helping out with house hold chores. Hmm, with mum and dad around, I don't really have anything to do cause I can't go out all the time to meet my friends, and my friends does not have holidays yet. So, I guess that will be an added push to make myself study during my hols.

Anyway, the internet connection speed seems like going down the drain worldwide. Wondering what's happening. Hopefully I can still have decent connection speed back here. If not I'm running back to KL, going out makan and play games with Alvin and my buddies there.

To my friends who are still having lessons, good luck guys. May the force be with you. To those who are having hols, please do call me out for a drink. Sitting at home 24/7 with the laptop screen infront of you can be torturing k.

The Holidays....

2008-09-29T22:35:00.002+08:00

I'm finally back in my room here in TBR. I was on what you would call a mini tour. I went to Kelantan last Tuesday to visit Cindy, my darling. I was suppose to stay until Thursday but plans keep changing so much, before I know what's happening, I was away fo almost a week.

Cindy's university was celebrating mooncake festival when I went to visit her. It was organised by the wushu club of USM. I thought I would never meet up with anyone I know in Kelantan USM, but to my suprise I have 4 friends studying there. Wye Hon and Puvin's studying medicine, Yoke Kuan's taking speach something and Powell Roy, I forget what was he taking as well. Hahaha.

So, on the second day in Kelantan, I was just touring around the campus. I went to see where's Cindy staying, where's her lecture hall, the library, the canteen, so on and so forth. Right after dinner we went back to the hotel and I helped her with some of her assignment. Next day, I followed Cindy for her psychology lecture. They were doing a case study but its more like watching movie only. After the class, I went back to the hotel to pay money to stay for another night. Once Cindy's assignment was done we went back to the hotel to... ehem. You know la what....

Sleep la of course. Stay up whole night and day do assignment is tiring. To those who were thinking out of the box, please get back in the box k. Hahaha. We were really tired. So tired that the next morning I missed the bus back to KL. So i bought a new ticket, get a taxi to the bus station. The next bus is at 2.30 pm. So I arrive KL at 11.30 pm. Luckily, Alvin was staying near the bus station. So in the end up spend the night at his place. God bless him man. If it weren't for him, I'd probably be sleeping on the streets just to wait for the LRT to operate the next morning.

Instead of going back the next morning, I ended spending another 2 nights at his place. Took time to remember our time together in NS (his girlfriend was in the same camp as the both of us) and school, watch movies and play games, I even learn to play some mah jong at his place. Hahahaha.

With all the travelling, I'm now dead tired.....

zZzZzZz......

The Plague of Darkness 2 - The Infection...

2008-09-20T02:42:00.010+08:00

I'm now sitting in front of the laptop, still thinking of methods to knock myself out and get some sleep. The whole residential area seems quiet, except for one house...

Ours...

Most of us are suppose to be having our last paper next thing in the morning, but non of us manage to catch 4o winks, not to mention sleep.

Zombie...

I'm spending my night playing DotA, Facebook, downloading anime and blogging. My senses tells me I'm about to become part of the zombie community here in KL. Am I the cause of the infection? Well, lets look at my other housemates ya.

Loong Cheong

This is my roommate, semi-nude, bout to have is last paper at 1400 hours. He claims that he's too excited to sleep. Has been studying hard for the past few days until late into the wee hours. When he's unable to sleep, his eyes seems glued to the laptop screen, downloading various media files and watching Japanese drama. Noticeable eye bags. Signs of turning into a zombie...

Positive.

Next test subject....

Two Jokers, Fa Ge and Ah Heng

My housemates, right opposite my room, seems to be enjoying the night. Both semi-nude as well, are watching downloaded Chinese movies and dramas, oblivion to their surroundings. The both of them have been enjoying their night life, unlike the previous test subject =p ( no offense ya brothers). Dark eyes rings could be made out if concentrate long enough. Signs of becoming a zombie...

Positive as well...

Moving on to the next tennents of the house...

Kelvin aka Bio

Creeping within the shadows of the night, taking every pace with great agility and silence, I've manage to sneak upon Bio and found that he just finished his movie. He was suppose to be watching a movie when we came back from dinner. His first movies was around 2100 hours. Its now 0230 hours, the next day. His last paper is at 0900 hours as well. As I was interrogating him, I notice his posture seem to have no firmness. The dark room made it impossible to see his eyes, but I'm certain it's of those of a zombie. Signs of becoming a zombie....

He's already one...

Working hard through out the night, researching and interrogating, I have seem to found the source of the problem. We'll take a look at the Test subject...

An unexpected visitor...

Ah Ben, who was suppose to be sleeping at the time of my interrogation with Bio, was suddenly found among fellow zombies Fa Ge and Ah Heng, watching dramas. He is having his last paper in 0900 hours as well. He claims that studying won't do him good now, and won't sleep until he's on the bus back to his hometown in the afternoon. Pleading for innocence, he says the movies calms him down and feeds his hunger during the night. I suspect his jacket is hiding evidence of him being a zombie. Sign of being a zombie?

Heck... He's the founder and the root cause.

The only tennets that are not infected where rainbow from the last room, who went back to his hometown much earlier since he has finish his exams, as well as Fei Zhai Clinston who left this afternoon after special tuition class to a fellow college mate.

Inference : Late night life seems to turn you into a zombie, the catalyst are media viewing and downloading. Whether you are naked, semi-naked or fully clothe, doesn't determine your're zombie or not. Snacks at night might be included as well.

Conclusion : The plague has infected most of the people in who doesn't take proper rest at night and becomes obsessive of various media. This infections is also referred as insomnia. Therefore, please do refrain from ths unhealthy lifestyle.

Blog ini adalah untuk tulisan semata-mata. Ia tidak bertujuan untuk memusnahkan imej individu-individu yang disebut. Isi kandungan blog ini tidak semestinya berfakta dan hanya digunakan sebagai inspirasi untuk bacaan umum.

Hahahah. I'm finally tired and now yawning after much thinking and rolling on the floor laughing at my crazy blog. Good night, or should I say morning? Doesn't matter anyway.

Ciao~ ;)

A Whole New Different Person

2008-09-17T15:48:00.008+08:00

It has been a long time since a pair of scissors has touched my hair. I have always wanted to grow my hair long cause both my parents are teachers and are strict about abiding school rules. As such, keeping long hair with side-burn more than half the ear, longer than half the forehead and the back touching the color is a no-no.

I have kept my hair right after my STPM until Chinese New Year, where i had a trim and dye it light brown. Later before I leave for KL to study i had another trim. My two visits to the barber has only been trimming my hair.

Now I'm sure you can imagine how long and thick my hair would be. Its so thick that birds could actually make a nest out of it man! I have been combing my hair with my hands whenever the wind blows, pinning it up when I'm working cause its prickling my eye, and once i need to tie it with a rubber band. Gosh, some how I'm glad I went for a haircut.

This me before haircut

Initially I was reluctant to cut my hair cause I wanna feel what's it like having long hair and mostly due respect of my darling's wishes of me keeping it. Later she told me her roommate said I look like a girl with long hair. Sweat.... Its ok. Frankly I have to admit it too. Now my darling approves of me cutting it and I went to the barber after shopping with Loong Cheong and Fa Ge.

After my haircut

I gotta tell you, my head feels so light after the haircut that I feel I have shed a few kilo's. Its so much cooler too since the weather is getting hotter day by day.

Cheese =)

Well, I guess it will be quite some time before I'll keep my hair long again. It was a nice experienced, but being called a girl was not =.=" Now where's my comb eh?.....

The Plague of Darkness - Sleepless Nights

2008-09-17T12:01:00.003+08:00

It is now the 3rd week of my exam here in UTAR. I have been up late into the wee hours in order to get some studies done. Well actually I have been watching the anime's downloaded by Loong Cheong (my roommate) and me, playing games, facebook and etc... Hehehe. Well I admit that I'm partially wrong for disrupting my biological clock in me, but WHY!!!

WHY, oh WHY, oh WHY!!!

I have tried various methods but to no avail have I been able to sleep at night. I stop drinking coffee, not taking any afternoon naps, taking a shower before I sleep, turn on Light and Easy ( a radio channel which airs oldies) when sleeping, taking a warm drink and for God's sake; i even subjected myself to putting a soft toy beside me while sleeping. ( T.T sob sob) Oh man, that really dented my masculinity. My Nationally Service buddies will surely laugh at me if they ever see me doing so. I can picture them buying me a pacifier for my next birthday. Sigh.....

Never mind bout that, I just need a solution on how to get back to my sleeping time again. It's a miracle that I don't have any dark rings at all. Probably I'll give Loong Cheong a bat and ask him to knock me flat out when I wanna sleep. With the constant banging and hitting me stone cold just to get Z's, there will soon be a mountain growing on top of my head. Hahahaha.

Hmm, sleeping during the day time, working during the night time. Hopefully I don't turn into a vampire during the process. Hahahaha.

When Everything Comes Crashing Down...

2008-08-20T18:46:00.004+08:00

When we were a child, we ask, when can we be an adult and make our own decision?
When we were teenagers, we ask, when can we be free and make our own choices?
But when we have all that, then we ask, when can we go back to the time when we do ot hav responsibilities and obligations to others...

I sounds so familiar everytime when I meet a new friend and this what we go through. You wish to be free, and when your're free, you wish you're taken care of. You wish you are independent, and when you are, you wish you have nothing to do with it.

Hmmm, when I look at myself and my time now in university, I asked myself, why wasn't I content or unhappy with everything I have, even though it was something I wanted long ago. I have a terrible time here. My friends are not here to laugh with me, my girlfriend is not beside me where I can tell her how much I love and need her, my dad no longer nags me to push me to study hard.

Aih......
I guess this is what growing up means. To be independent, to be someone usefull, to start taking responsibilities of everything I do and etc. May God bless me, give me courage and strength to take every step in live without hesitating, open my heart to His wisdom and knowledge that I know how to make the right choice, and kindness and mercy for I'm human and make mistakes.

Cleaning The Skeletones In Your Closet....

2008-08-04T15:18:00.001+08:00

It's not suppose to refer to anyone particular, but have you ever thought there is a necessity to rectify what you have doe wrong in the past? Or do you have to break ties with the people you once know in order to survive or live happily in the future?

I guess we all do and we start to ask ourselves the 'If Only' questions. If only i listen to my parents advice, If only i was told to do what i was thought, If only i could see this happening.
Could 2 wrong moves make everything right? Please forgive me for what I've done. Call me selfish but I only hope I could make my loved one happy and never to see hear cry or make her sad. Hate me but adore me as well for my love is enduring and is willing to sacrifice for the one I love.

Let this be a lesson to myself, an experience to us all and an inspiration for mankind never repeat the past actions of our wrong doing....

I hope this works....

2008-06-25T14:51:00.001+08:00

Arghhh.....
I have almost reached my patience limit. I've been trying different blog websites to post my blog but things don't go right. I've tried xanga,frindster, yadayadayada. The thing that is bugging me is that they're not user friendly, or rather, Asian friendly. Most of this websites cater to those in US.

Well, all thanks to my lovely girlfriend, I've found new hope in this website.

Now......the only problem is finding the time to blog. Usually i rather play games than blog. I wonder whether do I have the determination to do this. Wahahaha.